Sep 4, 2012

Two Days.

Well, I officially have only two days left with the kids and in Delaware. I have turned into an emotional time bomb. I cried sunday morning getting ready for church. Apparently I need to live life with no expectations because I had none coming here and I was pleasantly surprised. I have had so much fun the last month and a half. It started with an awesome visit from my Momma! Then a road trip across the US with lots of family time, then flying back to Delaware to nanny for Kate and Steve and enjoy some east coast times again. Now, I am dragging my feet. I've made some AWESOME friends since being back here. I think I have been with them almost every day. It's been so fun and a serious blessing to me. I have no doubt I needed these guys in my life right now. They have been a serious strength to me as well as giving me some really funny memories. I am sad that it is all coming to an end and it seems to be flying by... I am trying to fathom the idea that I will be working ALL day Friday. Marketing Director reporting to duty. Then school starts the next week. Honestly? Who knew my 7 week break would go so fast? It's crazy to look back though because I feel like my mom's trip was forever ago! Time is such a weird thing. Something can seem like only yesterday but the day after that can seem like a lifetime ago. I have been so blessed to have the people in my life that I have. The church. My family. My education. My job.

Lately, I have let myself forget what I don't have and focus on what I do have. I HAVE SO MUCH! Things work out how they are supposed to. Time is out of our hands sometimes and as hard as it can be... the wait is the most rewarding thing ever. I might be leaving some loose ends in Delaware but I have to trust that everything will work out and if this certain thing I want right now isn't right than something else will eventually fall into it's place. I have learned so much about myself, what I want in the future, and that "he" actually exists. Life is so much better when you are happy. I've been told my whole life to be happy. Well, guess what... I am HAPPY and I have to leave it all behind. I know I can be happy back at school. I loved my last semester. I loved everything I had going for me and I know it can only get better, I just wish I could take someone with me.

For those of you that aren't married I know you probably have someone like this (for those of you that are married... I assume your husband fills this role) The role I am speaking of is: that one person you want to tell everything to first. The one who knows all the things that make you laugh, can finish your inside jokes, Makes you want to be a better person, brings out the best in you, makes you smile with just the thought of his name, your best friend. I don't have a "boyfriend" but I do have a person who recently came into my life who I'd call a best friend and fills the description above plus a million other things. I couldn't be more grateful for him and the time we've been able to spend together. We have luckily been able to really enjoy the time we've had. We haven't wasted much time not being together.

Gah, this is ridiculous. I am sorry. It's really late and I couldn't sleep... too many wheels turning. And by the looks of this post it really is a jumbled mess. I couldn't even begin to organize it here! ha! I guess this is one of those posts for me to read in a month, 6 months, a year or 2 later.

<3 these boys.

Can't help but laugh at these fools. Sad part- I fit right in. :P

They pulled an all nighter... I slept on the floor. Guess I am just a party pooper. This was taken at 7 or so in the morning. RIDIC.

Glitz and Glam! :)

1 comment:

  1. So glad that you are HAPPY!!!! It's the only way to be ; )


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