May 25, 2013

Peace, Love, & What Could Have Been.

May 24, 2013- The day which will forever remind me of what could have been. My ex got married. Yes, it's a year and a half almost exactly to when the truth about his cheating came out. And, yes- he did marry that girl. Lucky her. *insert sarcasm here*

I had come to terms with it all just a few short weeks ago when I got a call from him. But, when a picture showed up on my news feed of the wedding and their first dance, I instantly started fuming and those fumes eventually turned to tears. (Let me just say it's a good thing I have the apt to myself this weekend).

What have I learned from this?

1. Social media is the DEVIL
2. The heart has a mind of it's own.
3. I will always love Andy- at least to a certain degree

What can I continue to learn?

1. I actually don't want what I thought I wanted.

Theme Song.

2. My wedding day will be better.
3. Once a cheater ALWAYS a cheater.

I am sure the list will go on and on but for now I can only focus on so much. I know that I should be past reminiscing on what our lives would be like now if he had been faithful. BUT. I always come to the same astounding answer!
"You wouldn't be happy and you never would have gone back to school. You would have never worked with Bill Cosby or any of the other incredibly talented people since being at BYU-I. And you are meant to be right where you are."

My future is so much brighter now, knowing that I won't be living in the shadow of him and following his band around on tour. I will have my own life. It will be crazy and just how I want it to be.

Probably didn't need to post these pictures but I couldn't stop myself. May they live happily ever after. And may he NEVER cheat on her again.

1 comment:

  1. Yep my beautiful girl, once a cheater always a cheater and if he cheated once he will probably do it again! What a douche! Love on keep you head up! You my dear are awesome inside and out!


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