Aug 3, 2013

Peace, Love, and Ramblings.

So while I was biking the other morning I got to thinking... (P.s. I've made it to 20 miles/day)

***for those of you who don't want to deal with my thoughts or diving in a little deeper- skip this post. It's full of lots of ramblings and rantings. 

If you stuck with me... Here are my thoughts. 

We are told to never settle. I let myself settle in my last relationship. For those of you just jumping on. I wrote about our breakup which is now an infamous post with almost 200 views in and of itself. (The Burning Cactus). 

Well, I only settled because I got impatient. I no longer wanted to wait and be alone. I knew this relationship wouldn't be long term so I let that be my justification for being in a relationship that would never work. 

Hindsight is 20/20. No, I am not going to talk about my last relationship for this whole post. Instead, I'd like to turn to the future. To becoming the person I want to attract. To finding peace in being single. To loving every moment of my life and looking forward to a day I have someone to share it with. 

I am not ready to be married. I am ready to think about it. I am sick of people only looking to date someone they could marry. I want to learn more and step out of my comfort zone. I don't need to know by the first date if I'll marry him. That's just setting yourself up for failure. I admit I on occasion think about whether I could see myself marrying the guy I like or not but, in 100% actuality. Who doesn't? 

"May the odds be ever in your favor."

Right? I mean honestly. I live in a place where most guys have no clue what they are doing with their lives. I took a bumpy journey to find exactly what I love and what I want to do with the rest of my life. Now I know and I will never regret the lessons I have learned.  So, why not enjoy every day. Why not make as many friends as you can? Never replace those true friends with the fleeting masses of surface level friends. Be cautious but also be open to what might fall in your path. 

Inbetween semesters is always an interesting time. This time is proving to be increasingly harder than any other transition time I have been in. I am back in Boise. It has been 4 years since I have lived here. My friends are either gone or married with kids. Makes for an interesting realization- I am starting on a blank page once again. 

First, I am so grateful for technology so I can easily keep in touch with all my friends now, that we are spread out everywhere. 

Second, I am grateful for the opportunity to meet new people regardless of how hard it is and how much I don't want to step out of my comfort zone and put myself out there. 

Third, well this one I may regret in a few months... I am GRATEFUL that I get to go back to school in September. I can't believe I am saying this. I miss Rexburg. Who knew?! 

Well, this post is maybe the most bizarre post ever. I am sorry. But my brain has been a jumbled mess the last week or so. I blame it on having WAY too much free time. 

Glitz and Glam! 

1 comment:

  1. To the future Megs! You're doing all the right things. I love you! Ps. Great job on the biking!


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