PEACE, LOVE, AND SPARKLES.

I know. I know. ***gasp.*** She's going to talk about the one thing a woman NEVER talks about, being overweight. I am not sure why it is such a faux pas to talk about?! It's not like it some secret that nobody knows... every one can CLEARLY see.

And before you start trying to tell me I am beautiful and perfect the way I am... I will kindly stop you. I am happy with who I am. I just know that I deserve to be healthier. Obviously, as I strive to live a healthier life, I will naturally start to loose weight. I am not opposed to that.

After one of my first 3 mile run/speed-walk... Yes, I was dead.

SO, now that I have admitted I need to be healthier--- here is where I am at today. For the last two months I have been striving to eat better and start working out. Healthy eating was my main focus as it is hard to change bad habits and to curb the cravings for french fries. I worked out 2-3 times a week and not very hard. I mean for me it was hard because I haven't really worked out in more than 6 years... Let me tell you, that is a humbling experience when things your body used to be able to do (with minimal effort) are now suddenly like climbing Mt. Everest.

I have been traveling a lot for work and this has created another challenge for me to face. How do you eat healthy when you live off of airport food and hotel restaurants? So, it's been a rocky start and not every day is perfect but I do know that endurance is the key.

Now that I am doing better with my eating habits it is time to commit to working out. I forced myself to join a gym. Gyms are TERRIFYING especially when it's full of incredibly fit people and then there's me on the struggle bus. I have to tell myself over and over again that I am fine and at least I am at the gym trying to fix the problem instead of my "normal" nights on the couch with dino nuggets and Netflix. (no shame) 

Since starting this shift in my life I have lost 10lbs. It may not seem like much, but to me it is a good start. I have a long way to go but I am happy to make sure that I get there. I have given myself a practical timeline and know that I won't always have perfect days but it will pay off in the long run!

I am done making excuses for my weight. For the last 4 years I have blamed the weight gain on my ex- and our horrible break up. Truth is, He is no longer in the picture and hasn't been for a long time. It's time to let go of the protective layer(aka fat) and him/all my other excuses.


Cheers to a healthier life, a more active life, and a more fulfilling life.