PEACE, LOVE, AND SPARKLES.

I have always been a firm believer in "No Good Deed" from Wicked! At least to some degree. This song basically says that even when you try to do good it will somehow backfire. Sometimes I realize I try far too hard to help others and to get them to "like" me. Or simply caring too much when the other shows no sign of caring. My friends often tell me that the person on the receiving end doesn't deserve everything I am doing for them or even just the time I invest in them. Let's be honest this is more aimed at the male gender than the females, but it is true on both accounts. I care too much.

Any and all actions generate reactions. If you will, visualize a pebble dropped into water the rings generated are the reaction of the initial dropped pebble. Eventually the ripples dissipate but we never know how far they will reach or what they will hit and bounce back at us.

The moral of the story should be 'Do unto others what you would have them do unto you.'
Unfortunately, it is not always that crystal clear. Much as there is opposition in all things I would like to bring in another common saying. "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." I am always giving people "strikes" once they hit 3 I still seem to have a hard time calling them 'out'. (Yes, I love my sports analogies- get over it.)

I have seen several times in my life come where I am letting my care for others bring me down. I invest a lot into everything I do. Go BIG or go HOME. Sorry, I am full of little sayings today. Seriously though, if the guy isn't calling you back, isn't texting you, isn't making time to see you, and isn't curious about WHO YOU ARE. Let go. If the girl who always comes to you for advice just won't listen, do what you can and then keep living. If there is one extra thing added onto your plate and you just might drop it all, say no or delegate. Take care of number one first. Stop trying to hard for the hope of potential in someone else. We CANNOT change someone else. They must first have the desire then we can help them. I can't make everyone love me... Sometimes the people we think are supposed to be in our lives are merely just lessons to learn.


Stop making things harder for yourself.

I had an experience this past week where I was asked to come into a college event planning class. This class is something I completely skipped over. I had no desire to take it. It has been my job for awhile now. Going into this class as a professional in the work force was something that scared me. I had to present for 20 minutes. I had to make my own presentation and use my own experiences. It was great for me! I walked out of that class with a new found confidence in who I am and what I bring to my job. It doesn't get much better than that!

Being responsible for trying to teach a 300 level college class of students was intimidating. I wasn't sure what I could bring to the class but I was able to teach them and myself all at the same time!

I am in a good place. I may be dragging my feet through school but it is getting done. I am working hard and constantly learning. I have great friends. I used to tell myself that once I got out of here life would be so GREAT. I neglected to realize I could have a good life here!

I am learning to embrace my present.

Being 23, a student, and single gives cause for a whole lot of conversations of "REAL" life. Luckily for me I am close to being done with school and I have pretty good options for after. I recently signed my last housing contract of my college career. It put things into a new light for me! I am almost out of here! It might be terrifying but I am so ready. So, that leaves one thing left that people can ask, pester, and even try fixing for me- being single.

Before I continue I want to state this simple fact. BEING SINGLE IS NOT AN ILLNESS. Whether by choice or default being single is fine! There isn't something wrong with you.

For me, I want to be dating, I want to be making an everlasting and beautiful friendship. I am to the point now where I have experienced a lot and have hopefully learned a thing or two. I am not in full fledged prey mode but I am looking and trying to keep my options open. I seem to be in an never ending cycle though.


I was recently talking with someone about how I always find the tools. They don't start as tools. They start off as the best thing I could ever find. Then those little red flags pop up right and left and I am left facing a completely different guy than the one I fell for just a few short weeks ago. I like to call this "two-faced syndrome". For whatever reason that guy is not ready for commitment and is preventing himself from being able to fully open up to a relationship or even a friendship.

Then we talked about how I always go for the same type. A guy recently came into my life and I shut down the idea before even thinking. He is NOT who I go for. He is not my type. SCREW types. Why can't I be as open to different personality types of guys like I am for my girl friends. My girl friends are WAY different. Some of my best friends are polar opposites. I don't prejudge a girl. I know I can pretty much be friends with anyone. As long as I can find some bond with them I know I am good. It's rather incredible to me to look at my friends and see how close I am to them and none of them are remotely the same. My love for them all is never ending.


So, my new challenge is to be more accepting of different guys. Maybe this way I can steer clear of the tools. I can't predict the future so who am I to judge before I even get to know someone. Friends come in all different types. Here is to keeping things open. Welcome everyone into your life. You may never know what is to come of it. I may never know.

It's about that time again where I write a post just to write what has been going through my mind lately. So, if you don't care about the thoughts of a rambling girl- save yourself some time and stop reading now. If you do care and you or someone in your life needs a pick-me-up then, read on.

Today's topic is to remember how important YOU truly are. You are someone. You are the ONLY you. It is really easy to let the negative thoughts about ourselves win. It's not fair. Stop focusing on the negative and remember all the really great things about yourself! If you are to the point where you can't seem to find a way to start that list, ask a friend. They can see much more clearly than you can!

Recently one of my friends had a hard day, I sent her the top ten things I loved about her. And this week it was my turn... I had a real crappy day and she sent me an even longer list of all the things she loved about me.



Guys, I am not saying this needs to be a long gushy list but I am saying that we can always build up our friends. That is what friends are for. They are okay when you come to them in a bad place because they love you and your good times will always trump the bad days. They want you to be happy more than you realize.

So, start your own list. If you aren't sure where to start, use this. (From The Help) ;P


Seriously, you have something to offer the world that I cannot. You have the strength to reach people I could never reach. You make a difference. You matter. Never forget it. Forget 'Negative Nancy' and find your inner happiness. Love who you are, because everyone else sure loves who YOU are.

JME... Don't kill me for posting this. :) I just love it!

I have always loved being able to express who I am. In high school I matched every bright color I could like the 80s had exploded on me. For those that know me now they probably won't believe me when I say I have toned it down a lot. I love my sequins and sparkles but those are a step down from my awkward teenage years.

Besides clothes there really are so many things we can use to express who we are. I like to write. I love to sing. I like to plan events. I love sports. I like cars- I LOVE old British cars. Beyond those superficial things I have noticed something lately. Your actions trump all of those identifying qualities. You can say one thing but when you do the opposite, you really loose credibility.

I have noticed lately how great my friends are- see the last post. I love surrounding myself with people who don't have to be asked to help someone they just do it. I like to think I do that... Honestly, I am always carrying coolers and big boxes around for work and almost every time some one asks to help me or just comes and opens a door for me. They are sometimes heading the opposite way even. Show days are worse because I have food to move too. From my fellow coworkers to friends they all help me.

I have noticed so many other things like this lately. People being selfless. In a world where everyone is becoming more and more selfish I think we need to recognize and thank those people in our lives that truly are being selfless. Everyone is going through something and we may never know and they still strive to be selfless. It impresses me so much! Especially when they don't even realize they are doing it.

Rambling is my forte if you haven't figured that out yet. Moral of the story, I am grateful for others stepping up and helping me with the little things. It means more than they will know. This extends from family, friends, to complete strangers.

It makes me think twice... am I being selfless or selfish?!

If you are unaware:

Best Friend Day

When : Always June 8th

Best Friend Day is a time to enjoy and appreciate your best friend. It's a day to honor and cherish the relationship.

If you're lucky, you have a best friend. If you are real lucky, you have a number of best friends. Best friends are very, very special people. You spend countless hours with your best friend going to events and activities, or just hanging out. You share secrets, hopes, dreams, aspirations, and disappointments with your best friend.

Some folks say you can only have one best friend. This author disagrees. You can have a couple at the same time, or several over time. Friends come and go for a variety of reasons. It's the result of many things, including moving, changing schools or jobs, and more. We hope that you are lucky enough to have a number of best friends over the years.

Celebrate Best Friend Day by:

Spending time with your best friend
Making efforts to find a best friend(if you don't currently have one)
Giving a small gift or card to your best friend
Calling an old best friend that you've lost touch with

You can thank Holiday Insights for this info.

I have been blessed to have some incredible best friends in my lifetime! Whether we were best friends in elementary school or best friends in high school or now, I will always consider those friends priceless. The moments shared are worth remembering! I am especially blessed these days with best friends spread out across the states as well as best friends just a couple minutes away! Here is my letter to all of you!

Dear Best Friend,

Thank you for always being there. For putting up with my craziness and pulling me in when I am getting to far away. Thank you for supporting me in all the good and bad. Thank you for hating the people that wronged me just because. Thank you for taking my side against the world. Thank you for taking a stand against me when I was blind. Thank you for thinking my snort is funny. Thank you for always building me up as everything else seemed to fall apart. Thanks for going on spur of the moment adventures with me. Thank you for not loving me any less because of my short comings. Thank you for being there. I love you. No matter how long it's been since we talked, you'll always be my best friend.

Sometimes all we need is a vote of confidence and it makes every worry, angry thought, or doubt disappear. We don't want to seem needy by constantly seeking out positive feedback but sometimes we need it. Let's be real, everyone wants to feel needed or appreciated. It's good to know your hard work is justified.

I recently had a horrible night at work. It was a double-header show night with two sold out crowds. It had potential to be an awesome night. It was anything BUT awesome. There have only been a select few performers I have had a hard time working with... this guy fit perfectly into that category. I had to step outside at one point I was so frustrated and couldn't pull myself together in front of the 900 people waiting for the second showing. My job is to take care of the performers and crew. That is pretty much the most important thing I do. I could do nothing right for this performer. He had no reservations in letting anyone know what they were doing wrong and that he was not happy. If someone yells at me for trying to help them- I SHUT DOWN. I have no desire to help someone who isn't grateful for my time and work. So, that being said it was an ugly night. Lucky for me I have an incredible team. From the ticket office, to ushers, to security, to A/V I work with some awesome people. I was not alone in this annoyance and sincere desire to be done and go home. We all worked together and got through the night. Those nights are RARE.

I usually love working with the performers and have no problems. That makes up for the nights that aren't so awesome. This weekend was no exception, it was a great day at work. I got a great email today from this weekend's performer and it was a nice reassurance.

This email was sent to my boss and then forwarded onto me. It's emails like these that really make my day! I am so lucky to have a job that I love and that I want to do for the rest of my life but sometimes it's not all glitz and glam. I have to remind myself of all the great people I have worked with and blow off the ones that I would prefer to forget.

:) I decided I need to be better at reminding those people in my life that they are appreciated and that I love them! That's my new goal. I love leaving notes for people so, I might just carry my post-its with me and leave a trail of notes. :)